Knife to the Heart ...

[texchan]

So my daughter is dawdling over her breakfast this morning (of course, since she has to be at camp by 9 AM, as opposed to all the days when she has nowhere to be and eats quickly >.O). Every day that my mom was here, she would tell me about this HUGE breakfast she ate -- well, huge for her, anyhow: fruit, cereal, two cups of chocolate milk, yadda, yadda, yadda. This morning, though, it was a struggle to get her to eat even a part of a banana and a handful of cereal. In total frustration, I ask her: "Why do you eat so well when Nana is here, but this morning, you don't want to eat at all?"

Her reply: "Because I like Nana better than you."

zOMG. Knife, meet Heart.

It made me want to cry. Seriously. I had a hard time holding it together, but I managed. I was honest and told her that hurt my feelings, but that it was OK for her to feel that way.

And I can understand it. I mean, I have my own issues with my mom, but she is totally different with my daughter. She is fun and funny and just ... different.

Still, there was this little part of me ... this little kid inside my head screaming: "HOW COULD YOU LIKE HER MORE? YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE'S LIKE!!!"

*sigh*

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[tex-chan.livejournal.com]

It was a hard and painful thing to hear, even though I tried to remind myself she doesn't totally mean it. I mean, I know she loves my mom, and that's a good thing. It's hard, sometimes, to separate out "being human" from "being a parent". The proper parental thing to do, I know, was to be OK with it ... but the human being inside of me just wants to be loved the best. I think I managed to hold it together OK, though. I hope. >.O

Awww, I'm so sorry you had something similar recently with your son. I know that had to hurt a lot, too. *hugs* At least he felt bad later on for saying it, and he realizes it's not true.

I think it's true that girls say hurtful things more than boys, just because I think that's the way girls learn to "fight" (for lack of a better word) in our society. Plus, they seem to develop language skills earlier. Even so, I was hoping I wouldn't have to hear something like this until her teenage years. *laughs*

EDIT: Ack! I knew I was forgetting something here! *HUGS* =D