Life and Stuff ...
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texchanLife sucks right now. Not for any particular reason ... but because it just does. But I am trying to work through things and make some changes for the better. I think it's going to be a long, hard road in many ways. But, hopefully I will get there. And then things will be better. I hope. Because it can't stay like it is.
Anyhow, I haven't been in a posting mood lately. Hence the lack of LJ-ness from me. I have been journaling on my own, long-hand, though. I try to spend some time every day doing that. I am not sure, right now, if it's accomplishing much, but it does force me to face up to my feelings and emotions, as opposed to ignoring them. In that respect, it's good. Exhausting but good.
Been watching anime for the past two or three days. I feel kind of guilty about it, because there's this little voice in the back of my mind always telling me I should be doing this or that ... or something. At the same time, it's been ages since I watched anime, and it's always nice to take a break. I've been in a shoujo sort of mood lately. Usually, I'm more of a shonen anime gal, but I've been more in the mood for things that are lighter, cuter, and a bit funny. Probably to counteract the overwhelming feeling of ambivalent blah in the rest of my life. I watched Ouran High School Host Club, The Wallflower, most of Full Metal Panic! (although I somehow misplaced the last disc in this series *sob*), and am now watching Marmalade Boy, Season 1. I hadn't seen Ouran or The Wallflower before, but I ended up absolutely adoring both of those shows. They both made me laugh out loud, and I need that in a big way right now. Full Metal Panic! and Marmalade Boy are re-watches, but remain favorites. I love how zany and bizarre Full Metal Panic can be, as well as the good mix of "romance", action, and comedy. And Marmalade Boy is just too sweet. It's one of those shows where nothing much happens ... and yet, it's oddly captivating. I'm not sure why. The manga was the same way for me.
Rainy day today was rainy. And chilly. Even better for sitting with a nice cup of hot tea and anime. Vanilla Chai. Yum.
Had a coat adventure with the kiddo today. Somehow, she ended up with another little girl's coat. The two coats look exactly alike: same brand, same color, same size, etc. I noticed it when I picked her up from her after-school activity. Luckily, the other girl's phone number was in her coat. So I called her parents to explain the situation. Which turned out to be much harder than it should have been. For some reason, her mom couldn't fathom how the coats got switched around. Gee ... I dunno. Maybe because they look EXACTLY ALIKE. And it's easy for kids to pick up the wrong coat, hat, lunch box, etc. Kids don't pay attention to stuff like that. Anyhow, it was a bit frustrating. It was one of those instances in which I felt like I was speaking some weird, made-up language known only to me. Or like my communication skills had completely deserted me. Which, actually, wouldn't surprise me. I have not been much good at communicating with others lately. In the end, I managed to convince the other mom that the coats somehow got switched. And we arranged to do an exchange. Hopefully my kiddo will get her coat back tomorrow.
Anyhow, I haven't been in a posting mood lately. Hence the lack of LJ-ness from me. I have been journaling on my own, long-hand, though. I try to spend some time every day doing that. I am not sure, right now, if it's accomplishing much, but it does force me to face up to my feelings and emotions, as opposed to ignoring them. In that respect, it's good. Exhausting but good.
Been watching anime for the past two or three days. I feel kind of guilty about it, because there's this little voice in the back of my mind always telling me I should be doing this or that ... or something. At the same time, it's been ages since I watched anime, and it's always nice to take a break. I've been in a shoujo sort of mood lately. Usually, I'm more of a shonen anime gal, but I've been more in the mood for things that are lighter, cuter, and a bit funny. Probably to counteract the overwhelming feeling of ambivalent blah in the rest of my life. I watched Ouran High School Host Club, The Wallflower, most of Full Metal Panic! (although I somehow misplaced the last disc in this series *sob*), and am now watching Marmalade Boy, Season 1. I hadn't seen Ouran or The Wallflower before, but I ended up absolutely adoring both of those shows. They both made me laugh out loud, and I need that in a big way right now. Full Metal Panic! and Marmalade Boy are re-watches, but remain favorites. I love how zany and bizarre Full Metal Panic can be, as well as the good mix of "romance", action, and comedy. And Marmalade Boy is just too sweet. It's one of those shows where nothing much happens ... and yet, it's oddly captivating. I'm not sure why. The manga was the same way for me.
Rainy day today was rainy. And chilly. Even better for sitting with a nice cup of hot tea and anime. Vanilla Chai. Yum.
Had a coat adventure with the kiddo today. Somehow, she ended up with another little girl's coat. The two coats look exactly alike: same brand, same color, same size, etc. I noticed it when I picked her up from her after-school activity. Luckily, the other girl's phone number was in her coat. So I called her parents to explain the situation. Which turned out to be much harder than it should have been. For some reason, her mom couldn't fathom how the coats got switched around. Gee ... I dunno. Maybe because they look EXACTLY ALIKE. And it's easy for kids to pick up the wrong coat, hat, lunch box, etc. Kids don't pay attention to stuff like that. Anyhow, it was a bit frustrating. It was one of those instances in which I felt like I was speaking some weird, made-up language known only to me. Or like my communication skills had completely deserted me. Which, actually, wouldn't surprise me. I have not been much good at communicating with others lately. In the end, I managed to convince the other mom that the coats somehow got switched. And we arranged to do an exchange. Hopefully my kiddo will get her coat back tomorrow.
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Date: 2011-03-11 03:30 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-03-17 12:36 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-03-11 03:52 am (UTC)As for the coat thing... Sounds to me more like you got stuck attempting to communicate with someone who wasn't all that bright rather than there being a problem with your communication skills. It's surprising how many stupid people there are in the world and dealing with them is always an exercise in frustration for the rest of us. ;) :HUGS:
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Date: 2011-03-17 12:41 am (UTC)That coat thing still kills me. You're right, though. That other person just did not get it. For whatever reason. I think you're giving me way more credit than I deserve for being "smart", though, considering that my kid probably had the wrong coat for a week or more without me realizing it. *nervous laugh* *GLOMS*
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Date: 2011-03-11 05:46 am (UTC)I haven't felt up to posting much myself in a long time. I think long hand journaling is a really good thing to be doing! You can definitely be more honest with yourself when you know no one else will be reading it.
You'll get through everything! Hang in there. I
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Date: 2011-03-17 12:45 am (UTC)I agree that the long hand journalling is a good thing. It's really helped me work out many emotions and feelings. But it also seems to take a lot out of me. Maybe that's a temporary thing, since I've just started working through all of this ... ?? Not sure. But, for the foreseeable future, it seems I will end up being much less of a presence on the interwebs. Well, not like I was much of one before, but ... LOLz.
It's been kind of frustrating and maybe even a bit frightening, because, right now, I can't see a way out of this. But I am trying to have faith that things will work themselves out. Or that I will be able to work things out. It seems that it won't be as simple as I expected, going into it, though. That's OK. I think it's better to know for sure that things are more "right" than to get a band-aid sort of quick fix, you know?
Thanks for the support and for cheering me on. It means a lot. =)