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What to Do? What to Do?
May. 10th, 2009 03:26 pmI'm not sure what to do with this journal. I've given it some thought, although, admittedly, I haven't spent hours and hours pondering over this issue. Still, no solutions seem to be forthcoming from my little, pea brain.
I love the idea of a brand new, sparkly journal. The thought of all this white/empty space, just waiting to be filled with my ideas or thoughts or dreams. I feel the same way when, having succeeded in filling one bound journal book, I take another from the shelf. I always take a few moments to leaf through it from beginning to end. To see the pages, all so empty and yet so full of promise. To lift the new book to my nose so that I can take in the scent of paper and bindings and thread and glue. For me, it's one of the most hopeful acts I perform in my life: that I will continue to dream, that I will continue the struggle to face up to my thoughts and ideas without running away or hiding (which, more often than not, would be what I preferred -- the coward's way out). I feel that same sort of excitement when approaching this little bit of space here on DW. There is promise here. And hope.
But also a little anxiety. A feeling of uncertainty. A little hesitation on my part. A little part of me that asks: Do I really need this? What will I do with all of this? Will it be the right thing? Is it stupid of me to want this?
Which leads me, inexorably, back to my original question. What do do?
I'm not ready to jump ship from Live Journal. Not totally, anyhow -- especially because most of my friends are quite content over there. I don't want to lose touch with them or miss out on those (in some cases, daily) contacts. They've become quite important in my life, and I would miss them terribly. I try to blog frequently over there. Usually once a day, at least, although I'll admit I sometimes go for a few days or a week without the desire to say anything about my life. Given that, I'm not sure I have enough stuff to say or think about that would fill up or deserve space on two journals.
I thought about keeping this journal as a sort of separate space for my writing. Perhaps an archive of in-progress stories ... rough draft stories ... thoughts on writing, in general ... maybe even an essay or two, if the mood strikes me to write one. I still write fanfiction, although I've been trying more and more to concentrate on original fiction. I'm not sure how comfortable I would be posting that on the internet -- although I did post my first novel in bits and parts on my LJ, for archiving purposes. I suppose I could archive original stuff here, just in protected entries or something. And, the idea of thoughts or musings over the writing process definitely remain relevant.
The idea of a "writing journal" appeals to me. I could see a certain amount of potential crossing over into LJ. Cross-posting a finished fanfic, for example ... or cross-posting an essay or something. But it would be kind of nice to have a "creative" sort of space. A place where I could get a fresh kind of start and keep my creative musings clear from my other life-related ramblings. I tried having a writing journal on LJ, but it didn't work out very well. I'm not sure why. Maybe I just wasn't ready for it? Or maybe there was too much other baggage for me over on LJ?
Things to ponder ...
I love the idea of a brand new, sparkly journal. The thought of all this white/empty space, just waiting to be filled with my ideas or thoughts or dreams. I feel the same way when, having succeeded in filling one bound journal book, I take another from the shelf. I always take a few moments to leaf through it from beginning to end. To see the pages, all so empty and yet so full of promise. To lift the new book to my nose so that I can take in the scent of paper and bindings and thread and glue. For me, it's one of the most hopeful acts I perform in my life: that I will continue to dream, that I will continue the struggle to face up to my thoughts and ideas without running away or hiding (which, more often than not, would be what I preferred -- the coward's way out). I feel that same sort of excitement when approaching this little bit of space here on DW. There is promise here. And hope.
But also a little anxiety. A feeling of uncertainty. A little hesitation on my part. A little part of me that asks: Do I really need this? What will I do with all of this? Will it be the right thing? Is it stupid of me to want this?
Which leads me, inexorably, back to my original question. What do do?
I'm not ready to jump ship from Live Journal. Not totally, anyhow -- especially because most of my friends are quite content over there. I don't want to lose touch with them or miss out on those (in some cases, daily) contacts. They've become quite important in my life, and I would miss them terribly. I try to blog frequently over there. Usually once a day, at least, although I'll admit I sometimes go for a few days or a week without the desire to say anything about my life. Given that, I'm not sure I have enough stuff to say or think about that would fill up or deserve space on two journals.
I thought about keeping this journal as a sort of separate space for my writing. Perhaps an archive of in-progress stories ... rough draft stories ... thoughts on writing, in general ... maybe even an essay or two, if the mood strikes me to write one. I still write fanfiction, although I've been trying more and more to concentrate on original fiction. I'm not sure how comfortable I would be posting that on the internet -- although I did post my first novel in bits and parts on my LJ, for archiving purposes. I suppose I could archive original stuff here, just in protected entries or something. And, the idea of thoughts or musings over the writing process definitely remain relevant.
The idea of a "writing journal" appeals to me. I could see a certain amount of potential crossing over into LJ. Cross-posting a finished fanfic, for example ... or cross-posting an essay or something. But it would be kind of nice to have a "creative" sort of space. A place where I could get a fresh kind of start and keep my creative musings clear from my other life-related ramblings. I tried having a writing journal on LJ, but it didn't work out very well. I'm not sure why. Maybe I just wasn't ready for it? Or maybe there was too much other baggage for me over on LJ?
Things to ponder ...
