Consolation Prize ...
Apr. 22nd, 2006 09:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
texchanSo, I'm kind of a weenie, I think. Sometimes, when I miss out on getting something I really wanted, I combat the disappointment by looking around for some kind of consolation prize. You know ... something else that I would want and/or love as much as the thing I missed out on. I guess I've done this ever since I was a kid, really. I always tell myself that I should just shake it off, not give in to the disappointment, and not rush off to find something with which to "console" msyelf. But, yet, inevitably, I do.
And, so it happened today, too. I lost that YJ auction I was going after. So, I decided to bite the bullet and purchase a different cel I have lusted at for a while on a dealer's site. It also helped that it was on sale. *happy grin*
Anyhow, I just got back the confirmation that it is on hold for me, so here is my latest "consolation prize":
I just love this image! I'm not sure exactly what it is, but I think there is something very graceful, and, yet, powerful in it. I love the way he is almost turning, and how you can see part of his armor and half of his face under that huge hat of his. Plus, the hair is incredible -- so delicate and really very pretty. All in all, a nice consolation prize that makes me a very happy otaku geekazoid fangirl. *grin*
But, is it weird to look around for something to fill the "void"? I mean, considering that the "void" in these cases is entirely self-made ... does this need for consolation mean that I'm seriously lacking in some way? Like, if I wasn't flawed, could I just be happy with myself and not have to seek out another shiny-pretty thing to make me happy and take my mind off of the one I lost? It does make me wonder about myself. And, I wonder if I'm the only one out here who does this. It's not just with cels, either ... I do this in pretty much every aspect of my life. I mean, some things, you can't console yourself over losing, but, most things ... yeah, you really can. Or, at least, I can. Does this make me horribly shallow? Hmmm ... maybe I shouldn't think about it too hard. I might be afraid of the answers I find.
And, although it should be clear that this post is about my very strange habits and, really, has nothing to do with the lost auction ... I want to make certain by stating: This is in no way a whiney "poor me" type of post. Yes, losing out on something is kind of painful, but it's a normal part of life. Plus, I adore the person who won the auction and could not be happier for them. So, this little entry really is only about me wondering what this whole "consolation prize" mentality says about my personality. And, nothing more. ^.~
So, tell me, folks ... do any of you do this whole consolation prize thing? Please tell me I'm not the only one!!
*wanders off to hide from herself in The Bish Closet*
And, so it happened today, too. I lost that YJ auction I was going after. So, I decided to bite the bullet and purchase a different cel I have lusted at for a while on a dealer's site. It also helped that it was on sale. *happy grin*
Anyhow, I just got back the confirmation that it is on hold for me, so here is my latest "consolation prize":
I just love this image! I'm not sure exactly what it is, but I think there is something very graceful, and, yet, powerful in it. I love the way he is almost turning, and how you can see part of his armor and half of his face under that huge hat of his. Plus, the hair is incredible -- so delicate and really very pretty. All in all, a nice consolation prize that makes me a very happy otaku geekazoid fangirl. *grin*
But, is it weird to look around for something to fill the "void"? I mean, considering that the "void" in these cases is entirely self-made ... does this need for consolation mean that I'm seriously lacking in some way? Like, if I wasn't flawed, could I just be happy with myself and not have to seek out another shiny-pretty thing to make me happy and take my mind off of the one I lost? It does make me wonder about myself. And, I wonder if I'm the only one out here who does this. It's not just with cels, either ... I do this in pretty much every aspect of my life. I mean, some things, you can't console yourself over losing, but, most things ... yeah, you really can. Or, at least, I can. Does this make me horribly shallow? Hmmm ... maybe I shouldn't think about it too hard. I might be afraid of the answers I find.
And, although it should be clear that this post is about my very strange habits and, really, has nothing to do with the lost auction ... I want to make certain by stating: This is in no way a whiney "poor me" type of post. Yes, losing out on something is kind of painful, but it's a normal part of life. Plus, I adore the person who won the auction and could not be happier for them. So, this little entry really is only about me wondering what this whole "consolation prize" mentality says about my personality. And, nothing more. ^.~
So, tell me, folks ... do any of you do this whole consolation prize thing? Please tell me I'm not the only one!!
*wanders off to hide from herself in The Bish Closet*
