Some Days Suck
Feb. 24th, 2004 08:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
texchanEver have one of those days where you just wake up in a crappy, crappy mood? I have more of them than I'd like to admit, actually --- I guess I'll dismiss it as an unpleasant factor of my "artistic" personality ... you know, the old cliche about mood swings and all that? Well, for some of us, it's true --- although I'm not altogether sure I would attribute it to an "artistic" personality ... simply because I'm not sure if I can actually lay claim to one of those. And, no ... before you even go there, I am not PMS'ing ... so there!
Anyhow ... my sucky mood. Let's see ... I woke up with the mother of all sinus headaches this morning, thanks to the ever-changing weather and/or barometric pressure in Virginia. It's a gray, cloudy day, so looks like there may be rain or snow coming --- a perfect match to my mood. I hate Tuesdays -- always have. For millions of Americans, Wednesday is the dreaded, hated "hump" day: too close to the weekend, and, yet, so damn close to Monday that your days off seem like they might as well be a million miles away. Well, for me, "hump" day has always been Tuesday. I guess it comes from many years of having a 4-day work week. Plus, I have writers' block --- big time ---which, if the truth were known, is probably, largely, the source of my incredibly pissy mood. There is nothing more frustrating than having all these ideas whirling around in your head, banging against your skull, and, yet, feeling totally inadequate and incapable of expressing any of them. The writers' block is the worst thing ... but, the other stuff definitely doesn't help. Yep ... no way around it ... today is just going to be a shitty, shitty day.
My mom used to tell me that you don't "have" to be in a bad mood. You can make each and every day a great day just by changing your attitude. Damn, that used to irritate the shit out of me. I used to always wonder how she could always be in a good mood. I mean, sometimes, you are just in a bad mood, you know? Now that I'm grown, I realize she probably was in a bad mood a lot of the time, but she just shoved it aside and put on a positive attitude for us. I still don't know how she did it ... but, whenever I'm in a mood like this, I try to be very happy and positive for my little daughter. Because she's little and doesn't understand waking up in a bad mood --- although sometimes, she does it --- and because she makes me happy. So ... maybe I can turn a bad mood into a good one ... Nah. It ain't gonna happen ... not till I get rid of this damn writers' block. But, I can pretend ... for her sake.
There is some good news, though. Hard as it may be to believe, the lamp looked great in our bedroom --- right down to the pseudo-suede-feathery shade. Yeah ... I know that one takes a stretch of the imagination, eh? I'm going to leave it up for a couple of days, just to make sure I don't develop a sudden and intense hatred of it.
And, the rest of the good news? My daughter is incredibly happy right now. She's sitting in my lap, "helping" me type this ... which means it's taken me about 50 times longer than it normally would. But, she's having a great time, and that's what counts. Life is so simple when you're five months old.
Anyhow ... my sucky mood. Let's see ... I woke up with the mother of all sinus headaches this morning, thanks to the ever-changing weather and/or barometric pressure in Virginia. It's a gray, cloudy day, so looks like there may be rain or snow coming --- a perfect match to my mood. I hate Tuesdays -- always have. For millions of Americans, Wednesday is the dreaded, hated "hump" day: too close to the weekend, and, yet, so damn close to Monday that your days off seem like they might as well be a million miles away. Well, for me, "hump" day has always been Tuesday. I guess it comes from many years of having a 4-day work week. Plus, I have writers' block --- big time ---which, if the truth were known, is probably, largely, the source of my incredibly pissy mood. There is nothing more frustrating than having all these ideas whirling around in your head, banging against your skull, and, yet, feeling totally inadequate and incapable of expressing any of them. The writers' block is the worst thing ... but, the other stuff definitely doesn't help. Yep ... no way around it ... today is just going to be a shitty, shitty day.
My mom used to tell me that you don't "have" to be in a bad mood. You can make each and every day a great day just by changing your attitude. Damn, that used to irritate the shit out of me. I used to always wonder how she could always be in a good mood. I mean, sometimes, you are just in a bad mood, you know? Now that I'm grown, I realize she probably was in a bad mood a lot of the time, but she just shoved it aside and put on a positive attitude for us. I still don't know how she did it ... but, whenever I'm in a mood like this, I try to be very happy and positive for my little daughter. Because she's little and doesn't understand waking up in a bad mood --- although sometimes, she does it --- and because she makes me happy. So ... maybe I can turn a bad mood into a good one ... Nah. It ain't gonna happen ... not till I get rid of this damn writers' block. But, I can pretend ... for her sake.
There is some good news, though. Hard as it may be to believe, the lamp looked great in our bedroom --- right down to the pseudo-suede-feathery shade. Yeah ... I know that one takes a stretch of the imagination, eh? I'm going to leave it up for a couple of days, just to make sure I don't develop a sudden and intense hatred of it.
And, the rest of the good news? My daughter is incredibly happy right now. She's sitting in my lap, "helping" me type this ... which means it's taken me about 50 times longer than it normally would. But, she's having a great time, and that's what counts. Life is so simple when you're five months old.
