Monday Morning Coming Down ...
Apr. 25th, 2011 11:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
texchanWell, not exactly ... since I'm not a wild partier or anything. (Or even a not-wild partier. Or ... something. >.O)
Spring break was great but all too short. I wasn't ready for school (and all the attendant obligations it brings) to start up again today. I don't think the kiddo was ready for it, either. We seem to be mentally dragging ourselves, kicking and screaming, through this school year. It's been a tough one -- at least for me. I'm not sure if it's been tough for the kiddo or not, but I do think she is tired and ready for school to be done for the year. About a month and a half to go, still. *sigh*
My company is still here. In some ways, it's been a good visit. In some ways, it's been stressful and anxiety-inducing. That's about standard. I am ready for them to go home, though. I feel guilty typing that out loud, but I am ready for some peace -- something that's in short order when the parental units visit.
Office painting is done. We are now waiting for the paint to cure enough so that we can put stuff back into the room -- and, thus, up against the walls. I think we can start loading the room again on Wednesday. I'm tired of everything in the house being topsy-turvy and misplaced. I pretty much had my whole life in that office, which means my life is now, essentially, packed away in boxes here and there. I don't know where anything is, and that is frustrating. On the flip side, I love love love the new color. Even now, with the room bare, I feel so much more at ease when I walk in there. It's funny what a difference paint color can make. I can't wait to get my stuff back in the room and reclaim my space.
I have been toying with the idea of starting a blog for my various unfinished projects and different crafting ideas and such. I'm not sure if it's a good idea or not. I love the idea of doing that type of blog, but worry that it might be something that's already too "done". But I do like making and trying a wide variety of things, crafting-wise. And I seem to be pretty good at most stuff like that. Perhaps I lack confidence. I'm not sure. Also, this would mean I would have to make an effort to finish all those unfinished projects. Yikes on that. o_o
I doubt anyone would read it, anyhow. But it might make a fun place for me to keep a record of different things I've tried ... what worked, what didn't ... etc. If nothing else, it might bring value to my life, just for that. But I am not sure if it would be enough for me. I want to say that it would. That the enjoyment I would get out of such a project would be sufficient, even if no one read it. Simply because I feel like such an attention-whore, otherwise. If I am honest with myself, though, I do not know if making a blog just for myself would be enough. I generally feel pretty crappy that my LJ is largely ignored and unloved (although that sounds way more whiny and pathetic than I feel ... or than I intend for it to sound >.O). I have a feeling those emotions would attach to a crafting blog, too. Maybe even more so. With LJ, the thing that bothers me is the whole act of reaching out and finding no response. It's kind of like shouting in the wind. Sometimes, it feels like being back in high school, and being that kid who really wanted friends but was never "cool" enough to have them. Or was never able to establish those connections with other people. And never quite figured out why that was the case. It's weird how you really don't outgrow some things. You tell yourself you do ... but, really, it's not true. Thats just something you say in order to get through the days with some sanity intact. Anyhow, the point is that, with something like a crafting blog, I fear it would hurt more to be ignored because it wouldn't just be my feelings and random thoughts. It would be my ideas and creative efforts. Would that hurt more? Would it make me feel more discouraged about myself than I already do? I'm not sure. I wonder why I end up agonizing over stuff that seems so simple for other people. Maybe I am mentally making this into more of a big deal than it is or should be. Hmmm ...
For now, I do have a project I want to move along today. I am frosting some glass panes to put over the little side windows on either side of my front door. Lovely little windows, but they are a pain to dress. I originally had some faux stained glass on there (a design I made with stained glass paint). But I got tired of it, and the sun leached the colors out over a couple of years. I didn't want to repaint it, so I took that stuff off, and I have been searching for something else to put there for months. I would love to do real stained glass, but it's just too expensive. So, we'll see if this idea works. And maybe I'll figure out the other stuff later.
Spring break was great but all too short. I wasn't ready for school (and all the attendant obligations it brings) to start up again today. I don't think the kiddo was ready for it, either. We seem to be mentally dragging ourselves, kicking and screaming, through this school year. It's been a tough one -- at least for me. I'm not sure if it's been tough for the kiddo or not, but I do think she is tired and ready for school to be done for the year. About a month and a half to go, still. *sigh*
My company is still here. In some ways, it's been a good visit. In some ways, it's been stressful and anxiety-inducing. That's about standard. I am ready for them to go home, though. I feel guilty typing that out loud, but I am ready for some peace -- something that's in short order when the parental units visit.
Office painting is done. We are now waiting for the paint to cure enough so that we can put stuff back into the room -- and, thus, up against the walls. I think we can start loading the room again on Wednesday. I'm tired of everything in the house being topsy-turvy and misplaced. I pretty much had my whole life in that office, which means my life is now, essentially, packed away in boxes here and there. I don't know where anything is, and that is frustrating. On the flip side, I love love love the new color. Even now, with the room bare, I feel so much more at ease when I walk in there. It's funny what a difference paint color can make. I can't wait to get my stuff back in the room and reclaim my space.
I have been toying with the idea of starting a blog for my various unfinished projects and different crafting ideas and such. I'm not sure if it's a good idea or not. I love the idea of doing that type of blog, but worry that it might be something that's already too "done". But I do like making and trying a wide variety of things, crafting-wise. And I seem to be pretty good at most stuff like that. Perhaps I lack confidence. I'm not sure. Also, this would mean I would have to make an effort to finish all those unfinished projects. Yikes on that. o_o
I doubt anyone would read it, anyhow. But it might make a fun place for me to keep a record of different things I've tried ... what worked, what didn't ... etc. If nothing else, it might bring value to my life, just for that. But I am not sure if it would be enough for me. I want to say that it would. That the enjoyment I would get out of such a project would be sufficient, even if no one read it. Simply because I feel like such an attention-whore, otherwise. If I am honest with myself, though, I do not know if making a blog just for myself would be enough. I generally feel pretty crappy that my LJ is largely ignored and unloved (although that sounds way more whiny and pathetic than I feel ... or than I intend for it to sound >.O). I have a feeling those emotions would attach to a crafting blog, too. Maybe even more so. With LJ, the thing that bothers me is the whole act of reaching out and finding no response. It's kind of like shouting in the wind. Sometimes, it feels like being back in high school, and being that kid who really wanted friends but was never "cool" enough to have them. Or was never able to establish those connections with other people. And never quite figured out why that was the case. It's weird how you really don't outgrow some things. You tell yourself you do ... but, really, it's not true. Thats just something you say in order to get through the days with some sanity intact. Anyhow, the point is that, with something like a crafting blog, I fear it would hurt more to be ignored because it wouldn't just be my feelings and random thoughts. It would be my ideas and creative efforts. Would that hurt more? Would it make me feel more discouraged about myself than I already do? I'm not sure. I wonder why I end up agonizing over stuff that seems so simple for other people. Maybe I am mentally making this into more of a big deal than it is or should be. Hmmm ...
For now, I do have a project I want to move along today. I am frosting some glass panes to put over the little side windows on either side of my front door. Lovely little windows, but they are a pain to dress. I originally had some faux stained glass on there (a design I made with stained glass paint). But I got tired of it, and the sun leached the colors out over a couple of years. I didn't want to repaint it, so I took that stuff off, and I have been searching for something else to put there for months. I would love to do real stained glass, but it's just too expensive. So, we'll see if this idea works. And maybe I'll figure out the other stuff later.