Going Public ... Sorta ...
Apr. 23rd, 2009 07:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
texchanI've been thinking about this for a while now, and I've decided to take the plunge, so to speak. About a year ago -- or maybe even two years ago now -- I decided to take my LJ totally private. Without going into a lot of boring detail, basically I was going through a really hard time. Several people who I thought were friends turned out not to be, and their actions toward me left me feeling hurt and unsure of who I could trust. At that time, I wasn't willing to have anything about my life out in the open. I guess feeling hurt and betrayed just made me want to curl inward and protect myself in any way I could.
But time has passed. The people who hurt me are no longer a part of my life. I've had no contact with them (and vice versa) for long enough that I think any links between us should be a thing of the past now, and I feel emotionally stronger. And so, I think it's time for me to try taking my LJ public again.
Not everything will be openly visible. Basically, anything that has no impact on my emotional well-being (like vacation posts ... any posts about books I've read ... cel gallery or website updates ... etc.) will now be public. Any posts dealing with my emotional state of mind, any ranty posts, and any emo-whiny posts will remain F-locked. I also post in-progress fanfiction on here, and those will remain locked and viewable only to a small group: basically those few folks who have contacted me and expressed an interest in reading in-progress fiction. Finished fiction will be open to the public. I usually post it on ff.net ... so why not keep it public here, too?
And, I guess that's it. Although I know it's silly of me, I feel nervous and unsure about this change. It's not like my life matters to anyone else but me. But that's the thing: my life matters to me. I'm really afraid of getting hurt again, but, at the same time, I'm tired of hiding because of a few people being jerks.
So, we'll see how it goes. O_O
But time has passed. The people who hurt me are no longer a part of my life. I've had no contact with them (and vice versa) for long enough that I think any links between us should be a thing of the past now, and I feel emotionally stronger. And so, I think it's time for me to try taking my LJ public again.
Not everything will be openly visible. Basically, anything that has no impact on my emotional well-being (like vacation posts ... any posts about books I've read ... cel gallery or website updates ... etc.) will now be public. Any posts dealing with my emotional state of mind, any ranty posts, and any emo-whiny posts will remain F-locked. I also post in-progress fanfiction on here, and those will remain locked and viewable only to a small group: basically those few folks who have contacted me and expressed an interest in reading in-progress fiction. Finished fiction will be open to the public. I usually post it on ff.net ... so why not keep it public here, too?
And, I guess that's it. Although I know it's silly of me, I feel nervous and unsure about this change. It's not like my life matters to anyone else but me. But that's the thing: my life matters to me. I'm really afraid of getting hurt again, but, at the same time, I'm tired of hiding because of a few people being jerks.
So, we'll see how it goes. O_O