Knife to the Heart ...

[texchan]

So my daughter is dawdling over her breakfast this morning (of course, since she has to be at camp by 9 AM, as opposed to all the days when she has nowhere to be and eats quickly >.O). Every day that my mom was here, she would tell me about this HUGE breakfast she ate -- well, huge for her, anyhow: fruit, cereal, two cups of chocolate milk, yadda, yadda, yadda. This morning, though, it was a struggle to get her to eat even a part of a banana and a handful of cereal. In total frustration, I ask her: "Why do you eat so well when Nana is here, but this morning, you don't want to eat at all?"

Her reply: "Because I like Nana better than you."

zOMG. Knife, meet Heart.

It made me want to cry. Seriously. I had a hard time holding it together, but I managed. I was honest and told her that hurt my feelings, but that it was OK for her to feel that way.

And I can understand it. I mean, I have my own issues with my mom, but she is totally different with my daughter. She is fun and funny and just ... different.

Still, there was this little part of me ... this little kid inside my head screaming: "HOW COULD YOU LIKE HER MORE? YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE'S LIKE!!!"

*sigh*

Comments

[metallijedi1.livejournal.com]

*bear hug*

I know it was pretty hard to hear those words, even
when you know she really doesn´t mean that.

I know you´ll have a very different relationship
with the chibi... I just know it´s going to be a much
healthy loving relationship than the one you have
with the boss-lady.

I can see the difference between a grandma and a mom
I see it with my mother... she was like a general
with us and with my nephews and nieces she´s so sweet and loving that sometimes I scratch my head and think
"is it the same person that raised me?".

Grandmas are cooler while growing up (sweet, nice and no rules), but mothers win when you get your first period (someday I´ll tell u my experience on the matter).

Just remember... the grandmas are nice because 1. the
one that has to dicipline the kid is not them. 2. they have interaction withthe grnd kids for a moment, not all day, every moth or every year..

*Bear hug*

[tex-chan.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah. Hearing that almost broke my heart. It made me feel like a real loser, even though I know it's not true. And I know and understand why she would feel that way. Well, the "rational" part of my brain knows this. The emotional part was curled up in the corner crying. (lolz!)

Grandmas are cooler while growing up (sweet, nice and no rules), but mothers win when you get your first period (someday I´ll tell u my experience on the matter).

Heh. I was totally on my own when my first "monthly" hit. My mom gave me a book on human sexuality. Told me to read it ... and if I had any questions, we would discuss it. I kinda looked at the pictures and left it at that. As far as questions ... heh. No way was I going to go there. I either figured things out on my own or asked my dad. I was actually more comfortable talking to him, weird as that sounds.